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Aggressively Trying

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Ok, so I posted a single update for my contribution to #BoutofBooks this year. And then the rest of it kind went into a downward spiral of nothing. Same with the 8inFortyEight (stemming from 25inFive). I’m pretty sure I read two hours this weekend and even less last week.

Not to mention I totally didn’t do a bullet journal spread for this week, so I just feel like a disorganized jumble of parts and pieces. I hate weeks when I am unprepared like this. I feel like a little mouse scurrying from item to item on a string of post-it’s that make me even question why I try with the bujo. And then I get mad for wanting to give up on it.

Life has been so hectic the last couple of weeks, I don’t even know how to keep up with everything. I’m sure this isn’t the best day for me to update my blog because I just got my monthly parcel from mother nature. So my emotions are more polarized than normal.

But gosh, it’s really hard right now to focus on one single thing, finish it, do a good job & feel good about it. I can’t be alone in feeling this way, right?

Anyway, I am going to try and end this post on a positive note. Some things I did this past couple of weeks that I really should be proud of even if they aren’t contributing to my side projects and such.

Work Related:

  • I developed outlines for new ancillary benefits to offer to our employees.
  • I attended a great training program open house that might yield more candidates in the future.
  • I went on a business lunch in spite of not feeling like 100%. And I didn’t totally suck at it (even though he kind of did, communication wise).
  • I got over my fear of doing multiple calls in a day.

Personal Related:

  • I got my husband a sentimental birthday gift & made him dinner.
  • I baked delicious cookies & then got compliments on them at work.
  • I turned my insomnia this morning into a 30ish minute reading sprint.
  • And I am going to go home shortly, drink some wine, & aggressively read to forget about my trying day.
  • Also, I guess I just turned a negative post into a positive one and created a bujo list to make up for the fact that I do not have any updates in that little blue book.

How is everyone else out there doing? Feeling like none of your goals are being accomplished? Or are you killing it? If you’re being a total badass I would appreciate any words of encouragement you can provide this lowly book blogger, who tries so hard but often falls short.

Until next time bookworms!

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Back with Rambles & Classic Reads

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Wow. It has been over a month since I posted anything! A whole month!

I cannot believe how incredibly lax I have become with this blog, especially after all of my goals and reorganization habits that I began only a month or so ago. Anyway, I’m able to rationalize “the why” behind my lack of reading and inactivity, so that in turn tones down my anxiety and depression a bit. Feel free to skip ahead below the cut if you are not interested in hearing my ramblings, but writing through this and getting it off of my chest helps me. If you read it, you’re a special kind of person who deserves all the coffee and cookies.

I determined three major reasons behind my lack of reading and updating this blog over the last month and a half.

  1. I am reading a monster of a book with my best friend as part of our best friend’s book club. And with all of the work/school/extra things we’ve had going on, it’s taking us longer than usual to finish it. It’s a lovely experience, especially since we live on opposite sides of the planet, and really allows us to bond and have those special experiences that “real life friends,” share.
  2. That and the fact that a lot of my reading time has been replaced with marathon training. Yes, me, who has never run competitively in all of my life, is running a relay marathon. I don’t know why I thought it was a good idea to sign up for the 6.3 mile leg of the race, but here we are. 52 days til the big race, so I’m trying to set myself up to not have a heart attack in downtown Pittsburgh.
  3. And finally, the third book I was convinced I could finish pretty quickly was lost up until a few days ago. It was a special gift too from the above mentioned friend, so anytime I would sit down to read, I would think about it and feel my anxiety levels increase. So now that I have found it again, I am starting to feel my anxiety levels decrease a bit, and will hopefully finish this book in March.

But hey, in perusing other blogs, I see that I am not alone with mental blocks and struggles when it comes to reading. And so I take some comfort in knowing that this isn’t a deficiency in my character, nor does it make my love of books or reading any less than someone who can finish 20 books each month. If anyone else out there is struggling and reading this, I hope you see that you aren’t alone either. Remember little or some progress, is still progress. 🙂

Now onto the book related content of this post. My next Throwback Thursday: Classic Edition read! See below the cut for what is next on my list.

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Bookish BuJo Pages

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I write this post with severely mixed emotions. On one hand, I want to be ecstatic and share with you all some exciting new pages in my bullet journal, and a little reading challenge I am doing with my best friend. And on the other hand, my family received some tragic news a couple of days ago.

My youngest cousin passed away this week. He was 18 years old. Because I want to respect his immediate family’s grieving process and their privacy, I won’t post too many specific details, but I wanted to just inform anyone reading this, in case you are able to sense that my tone isn’t as upbeat as it generally is.

If you believe in prayers, please send them our way. His family has suffered in a similar capacity before, and they are most likely going through absolute hell right now. I must admit, I am a bit nervous about going to the funeral early next week, but I know it has to be done. So any prayers, good vibes, or words of encouragement you can send to me either here or through Twitter PM, will really help lift me up.

But if you don’t want to, that’s cool too. Grief is a touchy, tricky subject, so I completely understand if you don’t feel comfortable doing so. Just think positive thoughts for all of us.

Anyway, I will now clumsily segue into the bookish part of this post.

Over the last week, I’ve been working on some new pages in my bullet journal (or, ‘BuJo,’ as it is affectionately referred to) that I thought I could occasionally feature on this blog. I already track my daily tasks, big picture life events, goals, daily scripture passages, my water intake, marathon training, writing projects, etc. Basically everything that comprises my life. Minus anything to do with this blog, and/or books.

So I thought that I needed to change that. Please excuse the crudity of my drawings and my typography. Another thing I added to the journal was practice for both. But I hope with time, patience, and some assistance from step by step tutorials, I will become better at this.

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Temporary Hiatus

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Well ladies & gents, we did it! The hubster, dogger, & I FINALLY got the keys, and moved in our (hopefully) forever home! So yay, for big life steps.

Which brings me to my less than happy news. I feel that a temporary hiatus is in order. I don’t know how long this will last. We are due to get internet on Thursday, so I might be sneaking on and off Twitter then. But I imagine it will be a few weeks until I feel comfortable enough to plant myself down on the couch (or in my new reading room ^^) for a hours at a time to build content for this site.

I want to thank everyone who has checked out this newish blog so far, and I am amazed at how many likes, comments, and follows I have already received. Seriously, it’s so unexpected, but much appreciated that each and every one of you has shown interest in what I’ve started here so far.

I’m only sorry I haven’t had a chance to return the favor. But I promise to visit your lovely sites, and read through some of your content once internet returns, and life feels somewhat balanced again. Or at least, I don’t feel like I’m living in a box.

Until that time comes, I hope you all have happy reads!

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